The song says it all.. =(

Seriously, why my life is turning to be like this..
Sick and tired of all this shits!

Shout Out!

Wow.. It's been really so freaakkkiinnggg long!
Last post was 14 October 2011!
It's more than half a year I have not post a single post..

I have stepped into working life for almost a year now..
Well, two months to go and it'll be official one year time!
I am glad that I am able to adapt to my working environment.
I am really glad that I am able to mix around with my colleague.

2012 has not been good to me.
I really wonder if this year will be a terrible year for me.
Performance drop.
Learning curve stagnant.
Working my @$$ off but doesn't get any result at all.
Worst of all, the person that looks after me since the very first day I was born, my grandma, passed away.

When everything is just suck, I will always look upon the sky and think if my grandma is watching upon me..
Far far away, I know that she'll bless me and that really keep me going on.
I wonder if i need to go through all this just to train myself when walk is getting tough.
My life might not been a bed of roses nor a box of chocolate but...
My life has been carefree days when nothing much will really troubles me and gets into my head.
I guess, it's time for a change.

It's time to grow up.
Held up the responsibilities put on me.

"If you never plan your life, you are planning to fail"
It's meaningful but how many of us can walk the talk?

Seasons of Changes

There's is Chinese saying - People will change, The Moon will be round..

It's just simply as people will change just like the Moon changes from day to day..

It's funny how things can change so drastically, it takes only short period of time...

How much trust can you put upon someone?

I am always been a cautious person..

I am playing it safe..

At most, I am just giving other 50% of my trust, and in return, I am hoping for 50% from their trust..

I am not a very trustworthy kind of guy, but I will try to hold on to my words.

It's easier not to just promise anything or anyone than to break the promise.

I am pretty much a thinker.. Not a doer..

All I do is think, analyse, solve.. In times, predict, assume, suspect..

What would you do when the thing that you thought it would be happens, has happened?

It something that I shouldn't concern with but somehow, it never gets out of my mind..

Trust my instinct and learn to be smart..

It's finally the time..

7/10/2011 :

It's the most horrible day in MMU.

Seriously, I have never seen anything so messed up in an University..

MMU might blame the student to act like hooligans..

But please, MMU is the one that is so incompetent.

When they should have expecting a huge crowd today, their workforce is so limited.

On top of that, they are doing their work so slow!

Wasted the whole day just to get these things.

8/10/2011 will be the day for my 5 years of hard work.

It's our time for 'square hat'!

This is most of us hoping for when we start from Foundation, all the way to Final year..

This will be the time my parent will be proud of us, for being able to graduate as an University student.

After leaving MMU for about 4 months, memories start to fade away...

I can't even recall other's name for awhile..

However, I'm having goose bumps when I had the thought that everyone is coming back to the place where we had began 5 years ago.

The thought is just so intriguing!

This will be the last time we will ever gather together..

Whatever the path we might be heading to, it's fate that brought all of us to cross path with each other..

Thank you guys for making my MMU life such a great one..

And thank you guys for being there, for small little thing, or big problems..

It's a great deal to meet with you all! =)

Take care and have a bright future ahead!

My best friend.. My love.. My everything..

My best friend:

She is the one that I have been with ever since the first day I went to my university life..

My life who had been living in a small place, finally step out of my comfort zone to a new environment..

I was something I looking forward after I have completed SPM.

To be honest, I have never thought of the importance of my family at that time..

All I want is to have fun and fun and fun..

She came into my life without any warning..

Build me into a man I am today..

Yes.. I learnt a lot from her..

She is mature and know what her life will lead her to.

I was still a hippy who never think about the future.

She makes me realise that I have a heavy burden to bear..

She is always there to accompany me whenever I needed help..

From breakfast to lunch to dinner and followed with supper, we have been together all the time..

I never knew why.. But I just like her companion.. And I guess she like my companion too..

My love:

After months and months of trying..

Finally I get my love..

Someone that I willing sacrifice anything just for her.. Without any thought..

All my thought is about her and her and her..

My world basically evolves around her...

What am I if she's not there with me.. I am alone.. Totally lost..

Quarrel is something we practice every single day.

From small quarrel and ended up a big fight..

Just want to know who is right and who is wrong..

I am not a romantic guy that she wanted..

I am a boring guy who is repeating the same routine every weekend..

Doing the same old stuff.. With no surprises.. But just heartache.

I am not the guy who she could totally relied on..

Someone who she felt safe within my care.. Within my protection..

I am just a guy.. With nothing, owe nothing, get nothing..

My everything:

You might think I am cold-blooded..

You might think that I am cruel..

I give you nothing but pain.. Nothing but heartache..

I not sure what else you will remember of me after today..

It must be very hard for you..

But please stay strong and take good care of yourselves.

From afar, I will always pray for your safety like I always do..

You will always be in my heart..

29/8/11..

Long Time No See...

It's been so long..
I enjoy spending my time talking to my old friends..
Some even few years never see each other..
Randomly meet up and have a good long talk..

It seems like I miss talking with them...
It can be few hours conversation..
From serious topic, to silly topic..
Anything, everything..
Just the time as the limit..

First Step Forward

It's time for me to face my adulthood..

With burden on my shoulders, the only option is to get the jobs done..

Future seem blur and unclear..

But I am sure that everything will be better as I work hard..

Work hard is the only solution..

To reach my goals, to fulfill my dreams.